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When you love someone, you think about them all the time.
When you love someone, you think about ways to make them happy.
When you love someone, you think about ways to make their life easier.

When you love someone, you do them favors all the time.
When you love someone, you give them things.
When you love someone, you do nice things to them.

When you love someone, you give them your attention whenever they want/need it.
When you love someone, you thrive on the attention they give you.
When you love someone, they mean everything…

Your love is the air you breathe, the oxygen in your lungs, heart, and brain.
Your love’s affection is the blood pumping through your veins.
Your love’s attention is the sunlight on your face.

When your love isn’t around, you feel like your suffocating.
When your love isn’t loving you, you feel like you’re dying.
When your love isn’t paying attention to you, you feel like you’re in darkness.

When all three things happen at once, you feel like nothing.
Your emotions are numb, and your body has no feeling.
You are in a coma, as if you simply stopped existing.

When someone hurts your love, you want them to suffer.
When you hurt your love, you want them to suffer even more.
And suffer, you do.

When your love hurts you, you suffer a little.
When your love doesn’t make it up to you, you suffer a lot.
After suffering a lot – for long enough – you start to hurt your love back without even wanting to.

There is no worse horror then feeling out of control.
There is no worse feeling than knowing you can’t fix what you broke.
There is not worse moment than when you have these feelings.

Sometimes I want to cry out in pain.
Sometimes I want to cry out for forgiveness.
Sometimes I want to cry out in loneliness.

One day you are happy.
Then, someone comes into your life and you are happier than before.
Then, they leave your life and you forget what happiness even is.

Can you learn how to get that feeling back?
Has it been stolen, and can only be returned by the one who stole it?
Or did you just place it in that person’s hands, and they drifted away?

I have my faults, but… (a)
I have my fatal flaws, but… (b)
I have my demons, but… (c)

a. I am a good & loving person.
b. My good points still make me worth it.
c. There is hope: Someday, I will overcome what brings me down.

I know that you have a hard time forgiving me.
I know that you have a hard time liking me.
I know that you have a hard time being patient for me.

I hope that you realize where you went wrong.
I hope that you realize that you can make it better.
I hope you realize that you can change who you are – and need to.

Every second you weren’t hugging me was a painful eternity.
Every second you weren’t near me my brain was burning.
Every second you weren’t loving me my heart slowly died.

Eternally hopeful – in both of us to become better people – I will be.
Eternally caring and forgiving – you can count on that.
Eternally I will be there if need me – just not the same way as before.

Have faith that I have strength to fix my weaknesses.
Give yours some work and some time.
When you are ready, come to me, reconcile, and lets bury this properly.

Someday, you and I can be ready to stop hurting each other.
I believe that day is destined to be.
But don’t put that day off for too long.

Everybody dies sometime.
Most die unexpectedly before their time.
Sometimes, that death is just a death inside.

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I find myself sitting here
By the phone
Waiting for it to ring
I don’t know who’s supposed to call
But I’m still here
Watching and waiting

It’s this overwhelming sense of urgency
That’s got me down today
Expecting something to happen
Feeling powerless to make it start

I guess this is what comes
From opening my eyes again
Allowing my feelings to be vulnerable
And starting to like people
And taking interest in the ones
Whom I find too interesting to be

Maybe this will pass
And go away to another place
So that when I close my eyes
I’ll stop seeing someone’s face

I feel foolish again
Foolish and silly
Ha! Who do I think I am?
What am I thinking?

So here I am
Expecting and hoping
Knowing all is out of my hands
And that thing I want to happen
(If only I knew what it could be!)
Will probably happen to someone else
And probably not to me
For now at least
Still waiting.

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Moments go by
Like days that seem so long,
And every day’s a Monday
Here in my room.
Where I bury myself alive
In this graveyard that I keep.
My meaningless belongings don’t even comfort me now.

You’re torn from my embrace before I even feel your warmth.
I used to think I was jaded before this.
And though you haven’t even begun to turn and walk away
You might as well be running.
And all that I can think of is our last kiss.

Days are so long,
But months flicker past me.
As I dive into a future
Without you.
I know that I can deal with it,
But nothing in me wants to.
So I occupy time in space and practice feeling numb.

You’re torn from my embrace before I even feel your warmth.
I used to think I was jaded before this.
And though you haven’t even begun to turn and walk away
You might as well be running.
And all that I can think of is our last kiss.

You go on,
Go on and be happy,
I never really was ‘til I met you.
But life sometimes is just that way,
And picking up the pieces
I realize that I’m one of them
Not knowing where I belong.
Little now makes me feel alive
Except for this painful breathing
And the memory of your lips still lingers on.

You’re torn from my embrace before I even feel your warmth.
I used to think I was jaded before this.
And though you haven’t even begun to turn and walk away
You might as well be running.
And all that I can think of is our last kiss.

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It’s so pathetic:
I still miss you.
I don’t know why,
But a piece of me
Is still gone…

I feel such sadness
It’s like a piece of me left
The day you left me

I’m so pathetic
You’d think that after three years
I’d get over you

Nothing can compare
No one will ever come close
To being like you

You were my angel
Yet a demon you became
And you ate my soul

When will the time come?
When I stop playing the fool
And get over you

I just don’t know why
I can’t seem to forget you
Even though I try

What does this make me?
Am I some kind of loser?
Or just still in love?

One thing I do know
Life will never be the same
Because I knew you

Be you friend or foe
It doesn’t matter to me
I’ll always miss you

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Milk white,
Soft and smooth
A blanket of snow
Glowing at the dawn.

The promise of hope
A touch of beauty
Something sustains me
Through Winter’s chill.

If I could hold it
It would slip through my fingers
But nothing goes wrong
And life tumbles on
As my destiny I wait to fulfill.

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From the top of a scale
To the bottom of despair
Sing a sad song
Find me.

Open up a book
Flip through the pages
Or just the cover art
Discover me.

To truly know my roots
You’ve gotta be where I’ve been
To truly feel my love
You’ve gotta know me.

So run through a forest
Climb the tallest tree
But on the way down
Just don’t forget
To every branch hit
When your body writhes in pain
You’re with me.

Now twist into a shape
And spring out of it again
And repeat with pulsing rhythm
Don’t lose me.

Lose yourself
Forget who your are
Simply play life’s roles
Detached from it all
And when there’s little left
Just a black and empty void
You’ve arrived at my home
My cave, and my womb
The home that is me
My canvas.

From the top of a scale
To the bottom of despair
Sing a sad song
Find me.

Open up a book
Flip through the pages
Or just the cover art
Discover me.

To truly know my roots
You’ve gotta be where I’ve been
To truly feel my love
You’ve gotta know me.

So run through a forest
Climb the tallest tree
But on the way down
Just don’t forget
To every branch hit
When your body writhes in pain
You’re with me.

Now twist into a shape
And spring out of it again
And repeat with pulsing rhythm
Don’t lose me.

Lose yourself
Forget who your are
Simply play life’s roles
Detached from it all
And when there’s little left
Just a black and empty void
You’ve arrived at my home
My cave, and my womb
The home that is me
My canvas.