No One's Listening

Moments go by
Like days that seem so long,
And every day’s a Monday
Here in my room.
Where I bury myself alive
In this graveyard that I keep.
My meaningless belongings don’t even comfort me now.

You’re torn from my embrace before I even feel your warmth.
I used to think I was jaded before this.
And though you haven’t even begun to turn and walk away
You might as well be running.
And all that I can think of is our last kiss.

Days are so long,
But months flicker past me.
As I dive into a future
Without you.
I know that I can deal with it,
But nothing in me wants to.
So I occupy time in space and practice feeling numb.

You’re torn from my embrace before I even feel your warmth.
I used to think I was jaded before this.
And though you haven’t even begun to turn and walk away
You might as well be running.
And all that I can think of is our last kiss.

You go on,
Go on and be happy,
I never really was ‘til I met you.
But life sometimes is just that way,
And picking up the pieces
I realize that I’m one of them
Not knowing where I belong.
Little now makes me feel alive
Except for this painful breathing
And the memory of your lips still lingers on.

You’re torn from my embrace before I even feel your warmth.
I used to think I was jaded before this.
And though you haven’t even begun to turn and walk away
You might as well be running.
And all that I can think of is our last kiss.

It’s so pathetic:
I still miss you.
I don’t know why,
But a piece of me
Is still gone…

I feel such sadness
It’s like a piece of me left
The day you left me

I’m so pathetic
You’d think that after three years
I’d get over you

Nothing can compare
No one will ever come close
To being like you

You were my angel
Yet a demon you became
And you ate my soul

When will the time come?
When I stop playing the fool
And get over you

I just don’t know why
I can’t seem to forget you
Even though I try

What does this make me?
Am I some kind of loser?
Or just still in love?

One thing I do know
Life will never be the same
Because I knew you

Be you friend or foe
It doesn’t matter to me
I’ll always miss you

Milk white,
Soft and smooth
A blanket of snow
Glowing at the dawn.

The promise of hope
A touch of beauty
Something sustains me
Through Winter’s chill.

If I could hold it
It would slip through my fingers
But nothing goes wrong
And life tumbles on
As my destiny I wait to fulfill.

From the top of a scale
To the bottom of despair
Sing a sad song
Find me.

Open up a book
Flip through the pages
Or just the cover art
Discover me.

To truly know my roots
You’ve gotta be where I’ve been
To truly feel my love
You’ve gotta know me.

So run through a forest
Climb the tallest tree
But on the way down
Just don’t forget
To every branch hit
When your body writhes in pain
You’re with me.

Now twist into a shape
And spring out of it again
And repeat with pulsing rhythm
Don’t lose me.

Lose yourself
Forget who your are
Simply play life’s roles
Detached from it all
And when there’s little left
Just a black and empty void
You’ve arrived at my home
My cave, and my womb
The home that is me
My canvas.

From the top of a scale
To the bottom of despair
Sing a sad song
Find me.

Open up a book
Flip through the pages
Or just the cover art
Discover me.

To truly know my roots
You’ve gotta be where I’ve been
To truly feel my love
You’ve gotta know me.

So run through a forest
Climb the tallest tree
But on the way down
Just don’t forget
To every branch hit
When your body writhes in pain
You’re with me.

Now twist into a shape
And spring out of it again
And repeat with pulsing rhythm
Don’t lose me.

Lose yourself
Forget who your are
Simply play life’s roles
Detached from it all
And when there’s little left
Just a black and empty void
You’ve arrived at my home
My cave, and my womb
The home that is me
My canvas.

I am a wolf in sheep’s clothing.
I am a demon disguised as a man.
You think that I’m good
You think that you know me,
But you can’t begin
To know
My master plan.

A crazy notion that I once had
Involved you and I in a dance
Or perhaps more of a duel
At any rate: romance
How foolish of me to come to the conclusion
That your heart I had the courage to win
For who can tempt a spider off her web?

Once up on a time
In never-never land
Innocence was lost
It’s never what you plan

Sadness used to be
Such a trivial affair
Now it’s dark and painful
Because you learned how to care

Wide-eyed child
Never again
Wasted youth
Unforgivable sin

Tragedy befell you
Both sides of the ball
Both sides
Of life’s flaws

Which came first?
The sinner of the sin?
When will it stop?
When will the nightmare end?

You first noticed the longing
Bud didn’t recognize
That growing void inside you
That emptiness in your eyes

Fruitless pleasure
Trivial pursuits
Nothing satisfies
Or nourishes deep roots

The aging that you feel
Is far to close to real
And life’s ironic trials
Your life they want to steal
You mask it with manners
You hide just like a child
Behind a playful spirit
And behavior young and wild

But nothing can replace
The time you let slip away
Not just the time you’ve seen
But with tomorrow’s time you’ve paid

This seriousness
This sadness
Floods your soul
This emptiness
This longing
Steals your joy
This bitterness
This pain
Sears your pride
This regret
This guilt
Forces your true self
To hide

Unspoken joy surrounds your face
Warmth and light
Beginnings
You light up my mornings
Every single day
Thoughtful and kind
Inspired

Beauty is in a smile
That begins in your heart
Flowing from the soul
Filled with immeasurable joy
Joy that overflows
For it can’t be contained
Yours is in me now
For I caught it today
The first time I saw you
Bubbles on the breeze
Dizzy spells subside
But the impression never leaves

For on your face
In your eyes
A sparkle
A sense
Of pride
A glow
Aura shine
Karma, Chi
Positive
Mine

It can spread through your body
To your fingertips and toes
And it’s really quite amazing
The power that it holds
For who could have guessed
Who could have foreseen
That I could be so happy
And life so sublime
At a moment’s notice
Form the comfort
That is found
In a smile